You weren't at breakfast this morning.
[ a little pointed, a little obvious, definitely avoiding any mention of herself β and certainly admitting to the fact that she's been paying attention to his presence in the dining room.
but this is easier, somewhat, over broaching any other subject. ]
[ a little pointed, a little obvious, definitely avoiding any mention of herself β and certainly admitting to the fact that she's been paying attention to his presence in the dining room.
but this is easier, somewhat, over broaching any other subject. ]
[this guy better be fucking hot.
that's the only thing sustaining hawk through this objectively ludicrous endeavor and following up on something that should have stayed an anonymous hookup. he's not even sure what's really driving this when he's at least back on speaking terms with tim - or maybe that's it in a nutshell. those words are echoing in his mind - coward, emotions, you run when it's too much, you pick the easy choice. as if any of this is fucking easy: still watching everything over one shoulder at all times, still living like there's someone watching him for the slightest crack to throw him in jail or present evidence of his deviancy to cohn and mccarthy on a silver platter. it's not like there's any shortage of it here, if anything, the cup runneth significantly over after a stop to the overworld and then some.
didn't stop him on christmas after the polygraph. didn't stop him from curling into tim at five in the morning after bailing leonard out of jail on a public indecency charge like previews of coming attractions if he didn't reign it in. and now here he is: out in public again, soliciting something meaningless because it feels like the walls are still closing in even if he's theoretically miles from dc and the farcical controlling force in the justice department right now.
there's whiskey on his breath and he's carrying a cigarette loosely between his fingers, walking the maze aimlessly with half the idea of turning around if he gets just lost enough, depending on how seriously their oh-so gracious hosts have taken the twists and turns of this. probably just some neat party trick to say they've got one on their grounds - a pissing contest between two wealthy fucks instead of investing in anything worthwhile. credit where it's due though - bathed in the moonlight it looks like some fairytale getaway, exactly where a prince might find his princess, or in this case, another prince. part of him thinks about what tim might look like out here, peeking innocently behind the hedges and waiting for hawk to find him in his solitude, to have his way with him here while the parties rage on inside and no one is the wiser about hawkins fuller and the heart he pretends he doesn't have.
well, he'll just have to settle for someone else.
he stops when he manages to reach the center, a giant statue looking like a bull? no, the minotaur, with a sigh and another deep inhale. it's only then that he notices something glinting off to the side - a bottle. hawk lets his footsteps fall heavier, still confident in their slowness as he takes his time making his way around the curve until he sees a figure sitting next to it. dark hair - a promising start. hawk lets his voice ring out clear, low and a little teasing from behind as he presses a hand against the statue and leans over.]
Well I guess that's as good a glass slipper as any.
that's the only thing sustaining hawk through this objectively ludicrous endeavor and following up on something that should have stayed an anonymous hookup. he's not even sure what's really driving this when he's at least back on speaking terms with tim - or maybe that's it in a nutshell. those words are echoing in his mind - coward, emotions, you run when it's too much, you pick the easy choice. as if any of this is fucking easy: still watching everything over one shoulder at all times, still living like there's someone watching him for the slightest crack to throw him in jail or present evidence of his deviancy to cohn and mccarthy on a silver platter. it's not like there's any shortage of it here, if anything, the cup runneth significantly over after a stop to the overworld and then some.
didn't stop him on christmas after the polygraph. didn't stop him from curling into tim at five in the morning after bailing leonard out of jail on a public indecency charge like previews of coming attractions if he didn't reign it in. and now here he is: out in public again, soliciting something meaningless because it feels like the walls are still closing in even if he's theoretically miles from dc and the farcical controlling force in the justice department right now.
there's whiskey on his breath and he's carrying a cigarette loosely between his fingers, walking the maze aimlessly with half the idea of turning around if he gets just lost enough, depending on how seriously their oh-so gracious hosts have taken the twists and turns of this. probably just some neat party trick to say they've got one on their grounds - a pissing contest between two wealthy fucks instead of investing in anything worthwhile. credit where it's due though - bathed in the moonlight it looks like some fairytale getaway, exactly where a prince might find his princess, or in this case, another prince. part of him thinks about what tim might look like out here, peeking innocently behind the hedges and waiting for hawk to find him in his solitude, to have his way with him here while the parties rage on inside and no one is the wiser about hawkins fuller and the heart he pretends he doesn't have.
well, he'll just have to settle for someone else.
he stops when he manages to reach the center, a giant statue looking like a bull? no, the minotaur, with a sigh and another deep inhale. it's only then that he notices something glinting off to the side - a bottle. hawk lets his footsteps fall heavier, still confident in their slowness as he takes his time making his way around the curve until he sees a figure sitting next to it. dark hair - a promising start. hawk lets his voice ring out clear, low and a little teasing from behind as he presses a hand against the statue and leans over.]
Well I guess that's as good a glass slipper as any.
[ When she accepts Embryβs offer, she tells him the location of her room, nextdoor to Lestat de Lioncourt, though his room remains closed to her. In Kingβs Landing, such an invitation would condemn her to scandal, but sheβs quickly learning there are no such rules in play here.
Still, her heart flutters like a bird in her breast, as she opens the door. Ser Criston had been her guard since she was a girl, Viserys as good as family until sheβd been asked to β to β ]
Itβs most reassuring to see you, Embry.
[ A little thrill, at calling a man by name, not title. Sheβs only ever been able to address her sons so informally. With a slight smile, she clasps her hands before her. Today, her dress bridges the gap between the world she knew and this one, a shimmering green cut across her chest, shoulders and collarbone exposed. The light fabric reaches her ankles and the sleeves split open, cuffed gold at her wrist. Bandages line her left forearm, obscuring the mark of the beast. ]
Would you β [ She turns around, her dress open to her lower back. ] I suppose I canβt ask you to βlace meβ when these dresses havenβt any stays.
[ Zip her up, ladiesβ maid. ]
Still, her heart flutters like a bird in her breast, as she opens the door. Ser Criston had been her guard since she was a girl, Viserys as good as family until sheβd been asked to β to β ]
Itβs most reassuring to see you, Embry.
[ A little thrill, at calling a man by name, not title. Sheβs only ever been able to address her sons so informally. With a slight smile, she clasps her hands before her. Today, her dress bridges the gap between the world she knew and this one, a shimmering green cut across her chest, shoulders and collarbone exposed. The light fabric reaches her ankles and the sleeves split open, cuffed gold at her wrist. Bandages line her left forearm, obscuring the mark of the beast. ]
Would you β [ She turns around, her dress open to her lower back. ] I suppose I canβt ask you to βlace meβ when these dresses havenβt any stays.
[ Zip her up, ladiesβ maid. ]
cw mentions of sexual assault, grooming (theyβre fine)
My son Aemond is here, as is the rival claimant to his brotherβs throne, his half-sister Rhaenyra, her husband and her son.
[ catching him up on the drama. ]
He worries we are outnumbered. Iβve told him to seek you out.
[ please donβt say anything weird (horny). ]
[ catching him up on the drama. ]
He worries we are outnumbered. Iβve told him to seek you out.
[ please donβt say anything weird (horny). ]
Hey uh I just read something really weird on the network
are you ok?
are you ok?
( heartbreak moves in inches, ash finds. not miles.
it doesnβt feel real the first 24 hours. existence without embry is futile β is less than futile, ash finds. he has to remember how to breathe. his heart doesnβt beat but it does clot, like an angry, infected wound. every time he thinks about embry it picks the scab in one messy tear, a river flow of emotions dumped in the empty cavity of his chest. he remembers. one time, embry got him to share a cigarette in the backdrop woods of their army camp, and laughed while ash coughed with the wheezing pain of smoke in his lungs, punching him boyishly on the shoulder.
ash remembers thinking, no one in the world has warmer hands than embry moore.
except, they arenβt warm now. theyβre cold and gray, the fingernails pale and lifeless, lips dry and cracked. embry moore, the life of every party. embry moore, every good army boyβs hall pass. embry moore, the man ash wouldβve doodled little hearts around his name and written mr. ashley moore in his school boy notebooks if they met a decade earlier.
ash spends all his energy on crying, until there arenβt any tears left. exhaustion forces him to sleep, curled up in a ball on the floor in his room, thinking about embryβs hands. )
it doesnβt feel real the first 24 hours. existence without embry is futile β is less than futile, ash finds. he has to remember how to breathe. his heart doesnβt beat but it does clot, like an angry, infected wound. every time he thinks about embry it picks the scab in one messy tear, a river flow of emotions dumped in the empty cavity of his chest. he remembers. one time, embry got him to share a cigarette in the backdrop woods of their army camp, and laughed while ash coughed with the wheezing pain of smoke in his lungs, punching him boyishly on the shoulder.
ash remembers thinking, no one in the world has warmer hands than embry moore.
except, they arenβt warm now. theyβre cold and gray, the fingernails pale and lifeless, lips dry and cracked. embry moore, the life of every party. embry moore, every good army boyβs hall pass. embry moore, the man ash wouldβve doodled little hearts around his name and written mr. ashley moore in his school boy notebooks if they met a decade earlier.
ash spends all his energy on crying, until there arenβt any tears left. exhaustion forces him to sleep, curled up in a ball on the floor in his room, thinking about embryβs hands. )
( when ash was twenty-seven, he had a dream about embry moore.
embry has one of those faces you could see on a gallant knight of the realm, on a dapper prince in some long forgotten country, on some military man saving you from a fire. ash dreamed he had a suit of armor clinging to his chest, a helmet under his arm, his chestnut curls plastered against his sweaty forehead. he knelt before ash, a playful, promising look in his eyes. when ash dreams tonight, he has the same dream, only when he goes to pet embryβs head it falls off his shoulders, hand fisted in the hair of his decapitated head, blood draining out of him like a waterfall, like the tears from ash's eyes. his mouth lolls open. it says werenβt you supposed to die for me?
ash decides he isnβt going to sleep again. not for a long, long time. )
embry has one of those faces you could see on a gallant knight of the realm, on a dapper prince in some long forgotten country, on some military man saving you from a fire. ash dreamed he had a suit of armor clinging to his chest, a helmet under his arm, his chestnut curls plastered against his sweaty forehead. he knelt before ash, a playful, promising look in his eyes. when ash dreams tonight, he has the same dream, only when he goes to pet embryβs head it falls off his shoulders, hand fisted in the hair of his decapitated head, blood draining out of him like a waterfall, like the tears from ash's eyes. his mouth lolls open. it says werenβt you supposed to die for me?
ash decides he isnβt going to sleep again. not for a long, long time. )
[ the day after hawkβs announcement, alicent leaves a bouquet of flowers outside embryβs empty room: zinnia for missing friends, pink camellia for longing, heliotrope for lasting love βand forget-me-nots, an unspoken promise to hold embry in her thoughts and prayers. no need to write a note, when her flowers say all, but she signs a slim card anyway.
one more name for her nightly vigil. alerie florent, lucerys velaryon, claudia de pointe du lac, aemond targaryen, embry moore. ]
one more name for her nightly vigil. alerie florent, lucerys velaryon, claudia de pointe du lac, aemond targaryen, embry moore. ]
[after the werewolf murders, the accusations hurled at rosie, and especially after he has to fucking play nice with danny, hawk does something stupid - takes a few drinks calls. definitely not to hear embry's voice or anything like that. no way.]
I hate this shit, you know that? And the worst part is - I really think you would have gotten a kick out of it.
Things are good with Tim and I. Rosie's better. But it feels like the goddamn world is ending, and it started with you being gone.
Jesus, what am I doing. Neither of us believe in an afterlife, but I almost wish you'd come back and haunt my ass.
............
........
.....
...
[an extended pause, the crackle of something like a lighter or the end of a cigarette burning.]
I miss you, alright?
Fuck.
[click.]
I hate this shit, you know that? And the worst part is - I really think you would have gotten a kick out of it.
Things are good with Tim and I. Rosie's better. But it feels like the goddamn world is ending, and it started with you being gone.
Jesus, what am I doing. Neither of us believe in an afterlife, but I almost wish you'd come back and haunt my ass.
............
........
.....
...
[an extended pause, the crackle of something like a lighter or the end of a cigarette burning.]
I miss you, alright?
Fuck.
[click.]
Unceremonious, as always.
Where will I find you?
Where will I find you?
[ Angry, breathless, trembling. He had to know this was coming. ]
Answer the phone. Now. What is wrong with you?
Answer the phone. Now. What is wrong with you?
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[ paging the number one hater in the club ]
Tim Laughlin is bedding my son.
Tim Laughlin is bedding my son.
[ he can't ask tim about this, because he might laugh. for similar reasons, pierce and hawk are out of the question. asking any of the vampires β most of all daniel and armand β makes aemond rather he eat glass. he doesn't want to trouble homelander with this, either.
don't take it personally, ser embry. he's as tormented in this asking as you might be in receiving this message. find comfort that he came to you last. ]
Respectfully, I demand an explanation for this:
"don't wanna spit, I wanna gulp
I wanna gag, I wanna choke
I want you to touch that lil' dangly thing that swing in the back of my throat"
Is this what passes for poetry in your world? Speak true, I implore you. I will have the truth of it and only.
don't take it personally, ser embry. he's as tormented in this asking as you might be in receiving this message. find comfort that he came to you last. ]
Respectfully, I demand an explanation for this:
"don't wanna spit, I wanna gulp
I wanna gag, I wanna choke
I want you to touch that lil' dangly thing that swing in the back of my throat"
Is this what passes for poetry in your world? Speak true, I implore you. I will have the truth of it and only.
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[there's a small set of boxes wrapped in glittering silver and blue, a common theme when embry opens them up. the first contains a black velvet box with a sapphire and diamond tie pin nestled inside. the second, a book that's been wrapped in paper from alina's shop - a collection of walt whitman's poems. it's clear hawk hasn't done much flipping through it, but there is one specific poem marked by a sterling silver bookmark with roses adorning the top. if embry pulls it out he'll see the tongue is engraved - hfz, with his last name jutting out in the center.
and last, but certainly not least: a rich leather case with navy and silver accented pieces: a paddle, a whip, a flogger, and a plug fit for a little prince.
hawk almost doesn't leave a note. it's a small envelope, his sloping handwriting taking up most of the card inside.]
and last, but certainly not least: a rich leather case with navy and silver accented pieces: a paddle, a whip, a flogger, and a plug fit for a little prince.
hawk almost doesn't leave a note. it's a small envelope, his sloping handwriting taking up most of the card inside.]
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Do you have a minute? I messed up. I need to talk to someone about it that won't coddle me like everyone else.
It was Alicent. Sorry. She didn't want me to tell anyone she was back until she was normal. Or as normal as she can be now.
I'm gonna tell you something else. And I'll even let you gloat about it.
I'm gonna tell you something else. And I'll even let you gloat about it.
[ he doesn't expect any reply to his message, but embry had done his mother a good turn, first for showing at the vigil then with the gathering held in her honour. aemond would have approved were it not for the host, and truthfully he was not paying attention to anyone else but himself and aegon in his grief.
that said, he's sought out homelander and daniel in the aftermath, which leaves just one more person to acknowledge in light of alicent's return. ]
Mother has returned to us in true. We thank you for your support in the time she was not with us.
We have no reason to meet in person again.
that said, he's sought out homelander and daniel in the aftermath, which leaves just one more person to acknowledge in light of alicent's return. ]
Mother has returned to us in true. We thank you for your support in the time she was not with us.
We have no reason to meet in person again.
Hi.
[it's so stupidly simple that he almost doesn't send it.]
Tim told me what happened - before and after. I know he's back now, but...how are you holding up?
[it's so stupidly simple that he almost doesn't send it.]
Tim told me what happened - before and after. I know he's back now, but...how are you holding up?
I'm sorry I tried to gnaw your hand off.
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