[ He's not gonna count on it. But maybe. Would it even help if he did? Explaining himself, apologizing, none of that actually undoes any of the hurt, it doesn't unbond him from Aemond, it doesn't reveal any of the ugly truths he's keeping hidden.
Maybe. ]
They made me an angel. I bullied a confession out of Eddie.
I don't know if it was the right thing. Maybe it was selfish. Or maybe it was self-destructive. Maybe if I hadn't pushed and just let it have him, it wouldn't have come for her.
That's such an ugly thought, but I'm still so angry about it all. Aren't you?
as much as i would love someone to blame, don't fucking do this. not unless you have concrete proof about her death and your hand in it. it's not your fault, tim. you might have blown up a good thing with her, but i don't believe for a second that you'd ever do anything that could've led to this.
of course i'm angry. i have no idea what she did, where she went, why the hell she was in the otherworld to begin with. why didn't she ask someone to go with her? why didn't she ask me?
I don’t remember choosing to go, I just woke up there in a shiny angel outfit. It must have been the same for her.
And I didn’t chase him, he came to me. I wasn’t myself, I felt like Like I knew he would die if he didn’t confess. And I didn’t want him to get off that easy. I couldn’t stand the idea of anyone feeling sorry for him after he was already celebrated for what he did to me and the others
I know it wasn’t his choice, but he pals around with those other sickos, it might as well have been.
maybe. but i should've still i could've gone with her.
[ ... okay, fine. ]
i'm talking to danny again. not like that. that sounded horrible. what i mean is, he left me some of his photography stash, mostly pictures of me, as a christmas present. and i understand exactly what you're saying, that you can't stand the idea of people feeling bad for him, or any of them. there's something about him that makes people take his side.
[ could be that embry assaulted him, but. anyway. ]
there are pictures of hawk. i don't know if he's still taking them. i know if you're with me, you're probably being watched.
he was stalking me, threatening ash, threatening to out me with his photos and by association him. it was before we really knew things were... more permanent than they felt. he kept pushing. and the thing about me is if you hand me a knife, i'm gonna use it. either on myself, or someone else. it's his fault. he handed me the knife.
i think we can safely say there's no stopping danny from jerking off to whatever he wants to jerk off to. he has an infinite collection.
[ he's biding his time to let slip that the collection includes pictures of hawk's corpse. embry's too, but tim likely cares less about that. ]
i don't know. but i'm not letting you or hawk get caught up in this again. hawk especially. he doesn't fucking listen to a word anyone says, except maybe yours. i don't want him involved. i don't want him risking himself for me again.
Hawk didn't even tell me the first time until after he killed him. I'm not in any hurry to find out if he's learned his lesson or not.
Be careful, please? I know we don't always get along, but I don't want to see you die again. Neither does anyone else except Danny and his psycho friends.
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[ she might not even come back. who's to say this place follows rules? brb killing himself. ]
yeah. why?
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[ He's not gonna count on it. But maybe. Would it even help if he did? Explaining himself, apologizing, none of that actually undoes any of the hurt, it doesn't unbond him from Aemond, it doesn't reveal any of the ugly truths he's keeping hidden.
Maybe. ]
They made me an angel. I bullied a confession out of Eddie.
I don't know if it was the right thing. Maybe it was selfish. Or maybe it was self-destructive. Maybe if I hadn't pushed and just let it have him, it wouldn't have come for her.
That's such an ugly thought, but I'm still so angry about it all. Aren't you?
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as much as i would love someone to blame, don't fucking do this. not unless you have concrete proof about her death and your hand in it.
it's not your fault, tim. you might have blown up a good thing with her, but i don't believe for a second that you'd ever do anything that could've led to this.
of course i'm angry. i have no idea what she did, where she went, why the hell she was in the otherworld to begin with. why didn't she ask someone to go with her? why didn't she ask me?
why're you still chasing after eddie?
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And I didn’t chase him, he came to me. I wasn’t myself, I felt like
Like I knew he would die if he didn’t confess. And I didn’t want him to get off that easy. I couldn’t stand the idea of anyone feeling sorry for him after he was already celebrated for what he did to me and the others
I know it wasn’t his choice, but he pals around with those other sickos, it might as well have been.
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i could've gone with her.
[ ... okay, fine. ]
i'm talking to danny again.
not like that. that sounded horrible. what i mean is, he left me some of his photography stash, mostly pictures of me, as a christmas present. and i understand exactly what you're saying, that you can't stand the idea of people feeling bad for him, or any of them. there's something about him that makes people take his side.
[ could be that embry assaulted him, but. anyway. ]
there are pictures of hawk. i don't know if he's still taking them.
i know if you're with me, you're probably being watched.
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So......why are you talking to him? Trying to get the pictures back?
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something like that.
didn't you say you didn't want eddie to get off easy?
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I don't think you're gonna get that from Danny. He's on the network right now whoring out his sister.
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i know. he's not sorry. the thing is, i'm not either. i was only sorry because of what ash would think of me for hurting somebody else.
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Why'd you do it in the first place?
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it's his fault. he handed me the knife.
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What now? I don't want to reignite the murder circus, but I don't want him getting off pictures of Hawk like that.
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[ he's biding his time to let slip that the collection includes pictures of hawk's corpse. embry's too, but tim likely cares less about that. ]
i don't know. but i'm not letting you or hawk get caught up in this again. hawk especially. he doesn't fucking listen to a word anyone says, except maybe yours. i don't want him involved. i don't want him risking himself for me again.
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Be careful, please? I know we don't always get along, but I don't want to see you die again. Neither does anyone else except Danny and his psycho friends.