It's the disdainful expression that people will continue to write extensively about. You've gotta get a poker face. Otherwise every photo of you will be accompanied by some completely made-up bullshit about what you're currently upset about.
You think Ash would be upset that you met someone? Why? I've never met a guy more obsessed with love than he is. He's also pretty invested in your happiness.
Please don't bring up Nimue's horrible taste in men. I don't want to risk throwing up on these important briefs I'm supposed to be reading.
they think i'm upset regardless of what my face is doing. it's been that way since i was a toddler. you remember? i was a meme. grumpy rich baby. it did numbers.
it's not love. we're not dating. he's not interested in me like that, and i'm not good at trusting people don't want to just check me for birth defects because of my parentage. i'm not ever going to bring anyone home for ash or greer or morgan or nimue or vivienne or you to meet. who would ever want to meet that many parents, who could still be considered "normal"? and i think that would make ash very upset. that i can't have it, because of who i am. i'd like to avoid upsetting him, because he's a nice guy. it's not his fault i was born.
also, merlin is nice. people with accents are always nice.
Well, it was funny when you were a baby. But now you can read, and that takes the joy out of it.
Jesus, Lyr.
[ that grumpy little baby that he used to play airplane with around the house, that he used to chase around the lake, that he read bedtime stories to... he'd do anything to get his innocence back. to keep him ignorant of his parentage, lies be damned. ]
Sometimes I feel like that's what being a Moore is. Not being happy. You get the lake, the horses, the sports cars, but you don't get to be happy. But that's not true. I believed it was for most of my life, and maybe we are cursed, but who cares? The fact that you're here and I get to be your uncle is the only thing that matters to me. And as long as you're here, happiness will find you. You might not believe it, and I hope to God it doesn't take as long as it did for me, but it'll be there. And no amount of your grumpy baby face will make that not true.
Merlin, nice? That's your opinion, and unfortunately you're allowed to have one.
( lyr does, at times, think he resents things mostly for how it shifted everything in his life. aunt vivienne, now grandmother. cousin morgan, now mother. friend of the family ash, now father. nothing went untouched by the revelation, unveiled in a newspaper, the inbred son of maxen colchester. ultimately, it's just a little different. embry thinks they're cursed and lyr knows they are — or he is, at least, because he'll never stop being what he is, which the byproduct of messed up birthday control from his mother and father, his parents who are siblings. embry can make it work in a triad, but lyr can't take the blood out of his veins.
anyway. he says what he hopes will make embry feel better, without having to lie to him. )
i'm happy without all that stuff. i know you think i'm grumpy, but i do love my family. i just don't want to disappoint ash. having an american hero for a biological father is pretty humbling.
[ that gives him pause. makes his blood run hot all over again when he thinks of how morgan fucking lied to him, a lie by omission even if they've never been the kind of siblings that call each other up for a talk or plan a visit just because. guilt rises, an immediate response to his bitterness. he left her to die. she hid beneath corpses with lyr already growing inside of her. ]
You could be a third head growing out of my ass and nothing I feel about you would change. You're my favorite person in our family. But I get it. It's not anything like what you're going through, but I really can't unsee Ash and Morgan, either. And yes, that does make things as weird as it sounds.
All right, look. I understand that more than I care to explain right now. Ash isn't easy. He just is. But as someone who's an expert in disappointing him, you're not even capable of it. Sorry to disappoint you, but you'll never be me. He'd never want you to feel the pressure you're putting on yourself right now. Especially not on account of his accolades, most of which he's not even proud of.
Not that I don't trust you to take care of yourself, but you're going to have to tell me who this mystery person is that you're flying across the world to see. I could send an agent with you. That's impressive, right?
i'd tell you you're my favorite person in our family too, but you're cocky enough.
i know. but that's kind of a part of it. he's a good enough guy that he wouldn't want me to feel like i need to impress him. i know he just wants me happy. i don't remember how we got started talking about this. they're both fine. i just don't want to have to tell greer and ash i'm seeing this guy and that it's not serious and will never be serious. that sounds like a nightmare.
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Otherwise every photo of you will be accompanied by some completely made-up bullshit about what you're currently upset about.
You think Ash would be upset that you met someone?
Why? I've never met a guy more obsessed with love than he is.
He's also pretty invested in your happiness.
Please don't bring up Nimue's horrible taste in men. I don't want to risk throwing up on these important briefs I'm supposed to be reading.
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you remember? i was a meme. grumpy rich baby. it did numbers.
it's not love. we're not dating. he's not interested in me like that, and i'm not good at trusting people don't want to just check me for birth defects because of my parentage. i'm not ever going to bring anyone home for ash or greer or morgan or nimue or vivienne or you to meet. who would ever want to meet that many parents, who could still be considered "normal"?
and i think that would make ash very upset. that i can't have it, because of who i am. i'd like to avoid upsetting him, because he's a nice guy. it's not his fault i was born.
also, merlin is nice. people with accents are always nice.
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Jesus, Lyr.
[ that grumpy little baby that he used to play airplane with around the house, that he used to chase around the lake, that he read bedtime stories to... he'd do anything to get his innocence back. to keep him ignorant of his parentage, lies be damned. ]
Sometimes I feel like that's what being a Moore is. Not being happy. You get the lake, the horses, the sports cars, but you don't get to be happy.
But that's not true. I believed it was for most of my life, and maybe we are cursed, but who cares? The fact that you're here and I get to be your uncle is the only thing that matters to me. And as long as you're here, happiness will find you. You might not believe it, and I hope to God it doesn't take as long as it did for me, but it'll be there. And no amount of your grumpy baby face will make that not true.
Merlin, nice? That's your opinion, and unfortunately you're allowed to have one.
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( lyr does, at times, think he resents things mostly for how it shifted everything in his life. aunt vivienne, now grandmother. cousin morgan, now mother. friend of the family ash, now father. nothing went untouched by the revelation, unveiled in a newspaper, the inbred son of maxen colchester. ultimately, it's just a little different. embry thinks they're cursed and lyr knows they are — or he is, at least, because he'll never stop being what he is, which the byproduct of messed up birthday control from his mother and father, his parents who are siblings. embry can make it work in a triad, but lyr can't take the blood out of his veins.
anyway. he says what he hopes will make embry feel better, without having to lie to him. )
i'm happy without all that stuff. i know you think i'm grumpy, but i do love my family.
i just don't want to disappoint ash. having an american hero for a biological father is pretty humbling.
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You could be a third head growing out of my ass and nothing I feel about you would change. You're my favorite person in our family.
But I get it. It's not anything like what you're going through, but I really can't unsee Ash and Morgan, either. And yes, that does make things as weird as it sounds.
All right, look. I understand that more than I care to explain right now.
Ash isn't easy. He just is. But as someone who's an expert in disappointing him, you're not even capable of it. Sorry to disappoint you, but you'll never be me.
He'd never want you to feel the pressure you're putting on yourself right now. Especially not on account of his accolades, most of which he's not even proud of.
Not that I don't trust you to take care of yourself, but you're going to have to tell me who this mystery person is that you're flying across the world to see.
I could send an agent with you. That's impressive, right?
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i know. but that's kind of a part of it.
he's a good enough guy that he wouldn't want me to feel like i need to impress him. i know he just wants me happy. i don't remember how we got started talking about this.
they're both fine. i just don't want to have to tell greer and ash i'm seeing this guy and that it's not serious and will never be serious. that sounds like a nightmare.
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haha. that's funny.
absolutely not.