[ in the drawing room, alicent sits by the roaring hearth, back against the legs of an armchair, knees swept aside at her place on the floor. not befitting a queen in the least, but then none of her behaviour has been in accordance with her station today β as outraged as she was on driftmark, knife in hand. as hurt as she was the night she learned of rhaenyraβs lies, too. aemond and tim are both children, in their own ways, young and careless.
alicent never had the luxury of such foolishness.
even as she hears the door creak open, she doesnβt look away from the embers. it is not so egregious, this unkindness, as the others she has known, yet it hurts more for being preceded by warmth. trust, given so rarely, when she should know better than to offer it at all. and still you reach for it. by inviting embry to witness her pain, by speaking to him about it at all.
a shocked gasp-turned-laugh, at the pettiness of embryβs opener. she clasps a hand over her mouth, courtly instinct, before she thinks again and lowers it. ]
You go too far. [ a protest without any commitment. then β ] Not an elephant, but perhaps a hare.
alicent never had the luxury of such foolishness.
even as she hears the door creak open, she doesnβt look away from the embers. it is not so egregious, this unkindness, as the others she has known, yet it hurts more for being preceded by warmth. trust, given so rarely, when she should know better than to offer it at all. and still you reach for it. by inviting embry to witness her pain, by speaking to him about it at all.
a shocked gasp-turned-laugh, at the pettiness of embryβs opener. she clasps a hand over her mouth, courtly instinct, before she thinks again and lowers it. ]
You go too far. [ a protest without any commitment. then β ] Not an elephant, but perhaps a hare.
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[there's a small set of boxes wrapped in glittering silver and blue, a common theme when embry opens them up. the first contains a black velvet box with a sapphire and diamond tie pin nestled inside. the second, a book that's been wrapped in paper from alina's shop - a collection of walt whitman's poems. it's clear hawk hasn't done much flipping through it, but there is one specific poem marked by a sterling silver bookmark with roses adorning the top. if embry pulls it out he'll see the tongue is engraved - hfz, with his last name jutting out in the center.
and last, but certainly not least: a rich leather case with navy and silver accented pieces: a paddle, a whip, a flogger, and a plug fit for a little prince.
hawk almost doesn't leave a note. it's a small envelope, his sloping handwriting taking up most of the card inside.]
and last, but certainly not least: a rich leather case with navy and silver accented pieces: a paddle, a whip, a flogger, and a plug fit for a little prince.
hawk almost doesn't leave a note. it's a small envelope, his sloping handwriting taking up most of the card inside.]
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Do you have a minute? I messed up. I need to talk to someone about it that won't coddle me like everyone else.
I did. But I don't think it was very good, I just sound like an idiot. She'll probably burn it. She should.
It's not about Aemond though.
Were you at the party that night, with all the angel/devil stuff?
It's not about Aemond though.
Were you at the party that night, with all the angel/devil stuff?
maybe.
[ He's not gonna count on it. But maybe. Would it even help if he did? Explaining himself, apologizing, none of that actually undoes any of the hurt, it doesn't unbond him from Aemond, it doesn't reveal any of the ugly truths he's keeping hidden.
Maybe. ]
They made me an angel. I bullied a confession out of Eddie.
I don't know if it was the right thing. Maybe it was selfish. Or maybe it was self-destructive. Maybe if I hadn't pushed and just let it have him, it wouldn't have come for her.
That's such an ugly thought, but I'm still so angry about it all. Aren't you?
[ He's not gonna count on it. But maybe. Would it even help if he did? Explaining himself, apologizing, none of that actually undoes any of the hurt, it doesn't unbond him from Aemond, it doesn't reveal any of the ugly truths he's keeping hidden.
Maybe. ]
They made me an angel. I bullied a confession out of Eddie.
I don't know if it was the right thing. Maybe it was selfish. Or maybe it was self-destructive. Maybe if I hadn't pushed and just let it have him, it wouldn't have come for her.
That's such an ugly thought, but I'm still so angry about it all. Aren't you?
[ thanks, he hates this. ]
as much as i would love someone to blame, don't fucking do this. not unless you have concrete proof about her death and your hand in it.
it's not your fault, tim. you might have blown up a good thing with her, but i don't believe for a second that you'd ever do anything that could've led to this.
of course i'm angry. i have no idea what she did, where she went, why the hell she was in the otherworld to begin with. why didn't she ask someone to go with her? why didn't she ask me?
why're you still chasing after eddie?
as much as i would love someone to blame, don't fucking do this. not unless you have concrete proof about her death and your hand in it.
it's not your fault, tim. you might have blown up a good thing with her, but i don't believe for a second that you'd ever do anything that could've led to this.
of course i'm angry. i have no idea what she did, where she went, why the hell she was in the otherworld to begin with. why didn't she ask someone to go with her? why didn't she ask me?
why're you still chasing after eddie?
I donβt remember choosing to go, I just woke up there in a shiny angel outfit. It must have been the same for her.
And I didnβt chase him, he came to me. I wasnβt myself, I felt like
Like I knew he would die if he didnβt confess. And I didnβt want him to get off that easy. I couldnβt stand the idea of anyone feeling sorry for him after he was already celebrated for what he did to me and the others
I know it wasnβt his choice, but he pals around with those other sickos, it might as well have been.
And I didnβt chase him, he came to me. I wasnβt myself, I felt like
Like I knew he would die if he didnβt confess. And I didnβt want him to get off that easy. I couldnβt stand the idea of anyone feeling sorry for him after he was already celebrated for what he did to me and the others
I know it wasnβt his choice, but he pals around with those other sickos, it might as well have been.
maybe. but i should've still
i could've gone with her.
[ ... okay, fine. ]
i'm talking to danny again.
not like that. that sounded horrible. what i mean is, he left me some of his photography stash, mostly pictures of me, as a christmas present. and i understand exactly what you're saying, that you can't stand the idea of people feeling bad for him, or any of them. there's something about him that makes people take his side.
[ could be that embry assaulted him, but. anyway. ]
there are pictures of hawk. i don't know if he's still taking them.
i know if you're with me, you're probably being watched.
i could've gone with her.
[ ... okay, fine. ]
i'm talking to danny again.
not like that. that sounded horrible. what i mean is, he left me some of his photography stash, mostly pictures of me, as a christmas present. and i understand exactly what you're saying, that you can't stand the idea of people feeling bad for him, or any of them. there's something about him that makes people take his side.
[ could be that embry assaulted him, but. anyway. ]
there are pictures of hawk. i don't know if he's still taking them.
i know if you're with me, you're probably being watched.
[ Okay we're all sharing the dumbest ideas we've ever had today. Great. Cool. ]
So......why are you talking to him? Trying to get the pictures back?
So......why are you talking to him? Trying to get the pictures back?
Yes. I didnβt want the monster to kill him. I wanted an explanation and an apology.
I don't think you're gonna get that from Danny. He's on the network right now whoring out his sister.
I don't think you're gonna get that from Danny. He's on the network right now whoring out his sister.
I got enough.
Why'd you do it in the first place?
Why'd you do it in the first place?
he was stalking me, threatening ash, threatening to out me with his photos and by association him. it was before we really knew things were... more permanent than they felt. he kept pushing. and the thing about me is if you hand me a knife, i'm gonna use it. either on myself, or someone else.
it's his fault. he handed me the knife.
it's his fault. he handed me the knife.
I get it. You wanted to protect him.
What now? I don't want to reignite the murder circus, but I don't want him getting off pictures of Hawk like that.
What now? I don't want to reignite the murder circus, but I don't want him getting off pictures of Hawk like that.
i think we can safely say there's no stopping danny from jerking off to whatever he wants to jerk off to. he has an infinite collection.
[ he's biding his time to let slip that the collection includes pictures of hawk's corpse. embry's too, but tim likely cares less about that. ]
i don't know. but i'm not letting you or hawk get caught up in this again. hawk especially. he doesn't fucking listen to a word anyone says, except maybe yours. i don't want him involved. i don't want him risking himself for me again.
[ he's biding his time to let slip that the collection includes pictures of hawk's corpse. embry's too, but tim likely cares less about that. ]
i don't know. but i'm not letting you or hawk get caught up in this again. hawk especially. he doesn't fucking listen to a word anyone says, except maybe yours. i don't want him involved. i don't want him risking himself for me again.
Hawk didn't even tell me the first time until after he killed him. I'm not in any hurry to find out if he's learned his lesson or not.
Be careful, please? I know we don't always get along, but I don't want to see you die again. Neither does anyone else except Danny and his psycho friends.
Be careful, please? I know we don't always get along, but I don't want to see you die again. Neither does anyone else except Danny and his psycho friends.
It was Alicent. Sorry. She didn't want me to tell anyone she was back until she was normal. Or as normal as she can be now.
I'm gonna tell you something else. And I'll even let you gloat about it.
I'm gonna tell you something else. And I'll even let you gloat about it.
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In a roundabout way, maybe. Aemond freaked out and dumped me. So I made a mess out of everything for no reason, like an idiot, and you were right.
In a roundabout way, maybe. Aemond freaked out and dumped me. So I made a mess out of everything for no reason, like an idiot, and you were right.
You don't need to lie to me.
He'll regret it. But if he tries to make that my problem, I'll laugh in his face. He told me I was dismissed, like a damn maid.
He'll regret it. But if he tries to make that my problem, I'll laugh in his face. He told me I was dismissed, like a damn maid.
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