You could've left the blood there, as a little souvenir.
[ then there's silence, because — it was insulting, and he is a coward. he isn't so much of a piece of reprehensible shit to think that anything he feels for hawk matters in this moment. he can hear his aunt nimue now. this is your dishwater, now you have to soak in it. he'd put his mad, wrenching want above someone else who mattered far more, and he has to live with the stain of his choices. ]
If it happens like me, which I think it will, you have to be there for him at his grave. If Ash hadn't come — I don't know what I would've done. I might've just tried to bury myself all over again. I felt... I felt really angry, and Ash is strong enough to hold me down any day. Hawk would never hurt you willingly, but if you feel like he's not himself, it's not his fault. And you feel like you're not safe, you need to call someone.
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[ then there's silence, because — it was insulting, and he is a coward. he isn't so much of a piece of reprehensible shit to think that anything he feels for hawk matters in this moment. he can hear his aunt nimue now. this is your dishwater, now you have to soak in it. he'd put his mad, wrenching want above someone else who mattered far more, and he has to live with the stain of his choices. ]
If it happens like me, which I think it will, you have to be there for him at his grave. If Ash hadn't come — I don't know what I would've done. I might've just tried to bury myself all over again. I felt... I felt really angry, and Ash is strong enough to hold me down any day. Hawk would never hurt you willingly, but if you feel like he's not himself, it's not his fault. And you feel like you're not safe, you need to call someone.
[ not him. he's done with both of you. ]