[it's not the first time hawk plans on disobeying a direct order, and it absolutely won't be the last. embry wants a brief, fine. he'll get one. at some point - but not the moment he wakes up. maybe lunch. maybe dinner. maybe six days from now when they've settled into the fineries lake como has to offer and have mended whatever fence is between them so it doesn't feel like he's sleeping next to a stranger with the knowledge that he wants to offer him comfort - to touch, to hold him in a way that's been wholly uncharacteristic for anyone besides tim laughlin in his life. maybe it'll be enough time for some other scandal to settle in and consume every headline and think piece across the globe. for the first time in a long time, he doesn't give a shit what anyone thinks about him anyway. he's more concerned for embry - protecting the shell that he knows is more brittle than the man's letting on.]
Sure thing. Goodnight, Embry.
[sleep doesn't come to him right away, because there's a sneaking concern that embry might not be able to fall asleep. even as his own eyelids sink down and try to pull shut in protestation, hawk waits sharp-eared for the soft lull of breathing evening out and the hum of the jet before he lets himself give in to his own mostly-earned slumber. and that should be it - a few hours, a couple time zone jumps, and they wake up to mimosas and a message from their pilot that italy awaits.
except of fucking course it's not.
embry's been through a trauma worse than any other, by someone he knew no less. hawk's upright within seconds of feeling rustling next to him, too light a sleeper and too unused to having a body occupy the space next to him for anything else. that and old habits die hard from his days in velletri - the need for quick response times between catching shut-eye at inopportune moments with varying degrees of discomfort. he's still exhausted, knowing it can't have been more than a few hours since they'd both slept before this sank in. he can hear embry's shaky breathing, the sounds of struggle between the sheets and and against the bed, and another wounded noise like he's trying to cry out and just can't.
hawk is up in an instant, fingers closing firm around his shoulders with one hand and feeling the damp seeping through his expensive dress shirt from where he was too tired to remove it. he rucks the sheets down, tugging them away from embry so he can feel less trapped before lifting his other hand back up to brush the hair away from his face and get him to open his eyes into awareness.]
Embry - Embry. It's Hawk - wake up.
Listen to me, you're safe.
[he's fully prepared for whatever happens - embry trying to wrench away, or coming to the startled realization that this was a nightmare. his voice is soft, gentle in its insistence to get him to open his eyes.]
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Sure thing. Goodnight, Embry.
[sleep doesn't come to him right away, because there's a sneaking concern that embry might not be able to fall asleep. even as his own eyelids sink down and try to pull shut in protestation, hawk waits sharp-eared for the soft lull of breathing evening out and the hum of the jet before he lets himself give in to his own mostly-earned slumber. and that should be it - a few hours, a couple time zone jumps, and they wake up to mimosas and a message from their pilot that italy awaits.
except of fucking course it's not.
embry's been through a trauma worse than any other, by someone he knew no less. hawk's upright within seconds of feeling rustling next to him, too light a sleeper and too unused to having a body occupy the space next to him for anything else. that and old habits die hard from his days in velletri - the need for quick response times between catching shut-eye at inopportune moments with varying degrees of discomfort. he's still exhausted, knowing it can't have been more than a few hours since they'd both slept before this sank in. he can hear embry's shaky breathing, the sounds of struggle between the sheets and and against the bed, and another wounded noise like he's trying to cry out and just can't.
hawk is up in an instant, fingers closing firm around his shoulders with one hand and feeling the damp seeping through his expensive dress shirt from where he was too tired to remove it. he rucks the sheets down, tugging them away from embry so he can feel less trapped before lifting his other hand back up to brush the hair away from his face and get him to open his eyes into awareness.]
Embry - Embry. It's Hawk - wake up.
Listen to me, you're safe.
[he's fully prepared for whatever happens - embry trying to wrench away, or coming to the startled realization that this was a nightmare. his voice is soft, gentle in its insistence to get him to open his eyes.]
I'm here.
[and he's not fucking going anywhere else.]